I have been thinking a lot lately about trying to be a mother, wife and full time employee. I have come to one major conclusion...it's HARD! I look at my little man and can't imagine how he sees me. I hope, it's in a good light, but with me spending less time with him than I should, I am not sure. Don't get me wrong, I try, but there aren't enough hours in the day for me to do all I need and want to do. Occasionally, I do think that maybe life would be better for all of us if I just stayed home with him, but then I love my career life as well. I just hope I can reinforce, in the small window of time that I have, just how much he means to me. I wonder if he knows how much my heart fills with love when I see his smiling face at the end of my work day... Maybe that is the answer I have been searching for all along. Should there even be an option to NOT spend every minute I can with him when I look at this smiling face?
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Yes - he's a cutie!!! Crystal - I know it's tough because we all want it all!!! And just like all females are never satisfied with their hair - if it's curly we want it straight, if it's straight we want it curly, if it's blonde we want it brown, if it's brown we want it blonde - I think we also always want a little bit of the "other side" of life. Having been a working mom before, and now a stay-at-home mom, I can tell you that I've had those days when I wished I had made the other choice - when I was working I would sometimes want to be a stay-at-home mom, and then these last few years of being at home, there have been numerous times when I've wondered if I should be working. It's the age old question that doesn't have a definitive answer! It's different for everyone. My decision may not be the right decision for your family, and your decision may not be the right decision for my family. At the end of the day, you have to do what's best for you, Mark, and Braden! All this to say that I completely understand your feelings of wanting it all but not being quite able to fit it all into 24 hours a day!!!
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